Reaching out yet again might be a while I do this, while I move through the
Lonely wives looking orgasm Lexington darkest part. Today was moving day for me. The plan was to pack my stuff the first part of the day (I live in a small 2 bedroom apartment) and to have movers come in the afternoon and load it in the truck, then head to storage. But, I couldn't. I know I should be able to, but every time I finished sealing a box, all I could do is drop to the ground, or hold on to the wall or the counter. My sadness has been so physical, it's like I've had the wind knocked out of me. I'm struggling just having the to put one foot in front of the other. I keep waiting for that damn phone to ring, I keep checking my, hoping against that he be there, that he show up for me, my friend, as he's always been my dear beloved friend. But he's not. He's not here. And I continue to find myself in a state of bewilderment, waiting, asking, where are you? I know perfectly well with my cognitive mind not to expect anything. I don't know how to let go, you guys. I want him here, I need him by my side to help me through this. I don't know how to do this, how to move forward. How to do what needs to be done. How to put my feelings aside and be just a human doing for a while.