He said I would not like what I saw. Later on while we were driving to the airport which was 4 hours away which was plenty of time to Sexy wives wants fucking sex party get to the bottom of this. While I was still reeling about his chat tryst he said to me that he had been faithful to me 22 out 24 years of marriage and that was when he admitted to the adultery taking place while at his union assemblies. He did not reveal until later on that day he had actually met up with his scrabble partner and I nearly died when he told me that. I asked him if he loved her and he said yes. We had a 10 hour plane ride ahead of us with a lengthy layover so we continued or conversation which during this whole time was surprisingly civil. I pressed him for details and why he did it. I could not believe that I had missed all this while it was happening right under my nose. He told me that we had nothing common except the drugery of daily living. That we did not recreate effectively together. We only took care of the business part of our marriage. Earlier in I admitted to him that I thought I was depressed. He said that he had been trying to tell me that for a couple of years but I would do nothing about it. I was extremely fearful that once we arrived home that he was going to be a flight risk. I worked very hard to convince him that he was not a bad person because he thought he was a total shit and did not deserve redemption. He said he tried everything in his power to make me hate him and that he pushed the online relationship forward to the limit it would go. He was game because he screwed up and therefore had nothing to loose. He was purposefully tried to be rude and ous without giving away his terrible secrets. He was looking out for his own as by the time this was in full swing. He gave up on turning himself around. He was expecting me to throw him out and serve his head on a platter. By standards this would be the proper course of action. Instead I wanted him to state his case so I could determine if there was anything left to salvage from our marriage. So the next few days and sleepless nights we talked and talked still with civility. He agreed without a blink of an eye for us to a marriage counselor and that we did with 5 intensive weeks of counseling. To be continued